It’s an inside job.

It’s an inside job. It really is! Happiness, contentment, joy, peace is all from within. I put so much of this on the external that’s why I can be affected easily by what’s going on around me. I guess that’s where the inner self comes in. How do I get there? There’s a lot to be said about meditation, I’ve tried it and it’s tough. My mind is busy. It also comes down to who am I as a person, if no one is there. I seem to be getting further away from what I want to be but maybe that’s the illusion that happens when I become conscious, and in turn puts me off trying. I’ve obviously not written for a while, again, that’s a sign of a potential breakthrough so there is hesitation, doubt and fear that stops me.