It’s been a while!!

It’s been a while!! So, what’s been going on? Well, I’ve been travelling and starting a new job. There should be lots to write about, yeah? Well, there probably was but I didn’t capture my thoughts/reflections in the moment.

The travelling was an amazing experience, the sense of freedom and adventure. It was action packed and nothing to do once the sun had gone down except try and sleep. I’d say that it was a trip of a lifetime, yet so simple and unplanned.

The new job was slightly less thrilling with the usual emotions around anxiety and feeling overwhelmed/out of depth. I’ve learnt to be realistic now though so as soon as I started I gave myself permission to be OK with not knowing stuff. It made the settling in period really quick and easy.

So, something else happened yesterday and without going into detail it bought up a lot of past stuff and emotions that weren’t overly productive. I allowed myself to experience them without reacting. They’re still there but a sleep always helps them to subside. It’s not something that will go away so I need to take action to resolve it. It’s amazing how they cloud thoughts, I became absent minded and scatty. I’ve learnt that I can’t control what others do or say, just my reaction. I’ve also learnt that it’s important to stand up for myself. The tricky bit is not lowering myself to the other person’s standard (or lack of). But, I do have to correct a lot of lies and ‘absences of truth’. This will be an interesting process so I’ll no doubt have stuff to learn.