Responsibility

Responsibility. Mmm, this one’s a bit fresh but I’ll go with it….

So, the scenario is that I’m out running on some trails after being couped up all day. Loads of space and surrounded by nature. Perfect, right? Until I have a run in with a 1.5m preacher. I’m still pissed off by it and it happened two hours ago. Keep replaying it, should’ve said this type replays. Anyway, back to the details. I’m running on a trail, it’s fairly wide, say 2m. I see a guy up ahead walking and talking (walking away) , I work out that he has earphones in. He’s on the left side of the track and as I get closer the track bends and he moves to the middle. There’s still room to pass. I’m running on a trail so it’s gravel (ie noisy to run on). I pass him on the right, he jumps, not realising I’m there as he has earphones in. Starts waving his arms and saying 1.5m! I continue running but turn and say ‘you were in the middle of the track’. He replies ‘Are you serious, do your research’. I continue to run but I’m filled with anger so start walking. As the tracks weave I look down and he’s staring so I stare. I continue to walk for the next 2k trying to work out what’s going on, wanting to turn around and have an argument. That’s not like me but I’m sick of making allowances.

So, back to responsibility. I wanted to point out to him that a, if he wasn’t in the middle of the track there would have been room, b, if he didn’t have earphones in he would have heard me, c, if he’s so fucking precious maybe he should be inside. I’m sick of the people who now have a perfect platform to play the victim. It’s everyone else’s fault, right?

I have to try and work out why it wound me up so much. It’s good to post now, in the moment, whilst the feeling is still high and before I’ve had time to reflect. This is my inner self. It’s clearly an ego thing that I need to look at