Censorship. I’ve been thinking about this quite a bit lately after listening to a podcast from Mark Groves called ‘The cost of censorship’. I’m trying to make sense of it and work out how what to do with it.
I find that with any topic, knowledge or awareness creates more problems initially. I guess it’s easy to be unconcious. There’s also the topic of intellectualisation, something I tend to do, think about things too much to try and understand, without allowing the feeling.
Anyway, that’s another story. Censorship, we’re concious of how this is done in other cultures and how dangerous free speach can actually be in some countries (leading to fear of death in the extreme). In first world countries we assume that we’re free to do and say what we believe (within the law). There’s also sensitivity of others’ feelings so it’s not just a case of saying exactly what we think. It’s a balance. I tend to live by a rule ‘if I can’t say something positive/kind in response to something I’m upset with, then say nothing at all’. It’s a form of self censorship, a form of self protection and a way of avoiding conflict.
I’m seeing more and more of it lately and the media/social media is doing a great job in supporting a single minded way of thinking. It’s too dangerous to question anything, everything really is black and white at the moment. I can be black and white at times but in this current situation I’m pretty grey. It relates to my previous posts on belonging. It’s really hard to keep my mouth shut, it feels like my hands are tied verbally. It’s my choice and I know it’s probably for the best if I keep my thoughts to myself and just observe society at the moment.
It’s funny, I never trusted myself, my judgement, my thoughts in my early years, I had a breakdown and went through years of therapy to get to a place where I own my thoughts, my opinions and beliefs, and I’m OK with not agreeing with others. All I ask is the same from everyone else, it’s all about acceptance for me. It comes down to trust and at the moment I don’t trust society and how individuals will react.
I’ll keep trying to be the observer…..