Fight, flight or accept? It’s appropriate that today is world mental health day. The ‘system’ is testing me alot lately and pushing me to make decisions. It’s tricky to be completely honest here and go into too much detail about the challenges I’m facing. I can talk about how I’m feeling and reacting I guess. Uncertainty has raised it’s head again, is that a bad thing? It is if I lose faith and trust, and act out of fear. Where am I supposed to be and what is the plan for my life? I’ve not talked about the universe or God yet, it’s a personal thing but I know there is a plan for me but I don’t like not knowing what it is and tend to overthink stuff and act from fear, whether that be fight or flight.
I’m also being tested by a system that previously beat me to my knees. I found myself yesterday reacting like the ‘old me’, wanting to fight fire with fire, wanting to serve justice, wanting the world know the ‘truth’ (or at least my side), wanting to be defensive and aggressive.
React rather than act. I’m a different person this time around but it was scary to go back to my old ways of thoughts and feelings. Everything is a choice, it’s so hard to ‘turn the other cheek’. I need to take action, I know that much. Things don’t just go away, like the stone in the shoe. It’s easy to be wise and rational when things are calm. This is the opportunity. What we go through we grow through. Right?
My Inner Self 